I've had some insane changes recently. On Mother's day this year I decided to split from my husband. 8 years we've been together. Things were fine relationship wise honestly. But I have a lot of shit I'm dealing with on my own. My mental health, finding my place, loving myself. I didn't feel like I could grow with a partner. I need to grow alone. I got married at 18, fresh out of high school. I didn't give myself time to get to know me, love me, take care of me. At 25 I am absolutely terrified of being on my own. But it's a detrimental step I need to take. You guys know I'm a risk taker. I'd rather regret something I did, than something I didn't do. I've made a lott of stupid mistakes as you can imagine. But hey, I'm living my life and doing the damn thing you know. I'm gonna use this space to vent and just document my journey, you're welcome to come along for the ride. Might not be interesting, but life doesn't always have to be. Sometimes it's just comfortable, you know? Anyway, I'm gonna get out of here, I'll post a lengthier update at some point. Cya.

Simple Patch DIY

So I finally did another DIY, a super simple one too. I purchased the denim jacket and tote bag from Forever 21. The total cost of this was around $13, so I got a really good deal. 

All I did was cut the tote in half basically. I pinned it down to the denim and cut the excess fabric off. 

and then just start sewing!

It only took me about 5 minutes to sew the entire "patch" to the jacket.

And that's it! 

Last update for a while..

So, most of my friends know that I've been waiting to hear back from the job I had an interview for-well I got it! The store won't open until August so we're still deciding when I should start. I got the call yesterday. 

I spent the last 6 days with Olivia and they were perfect. Leaving her this morning was hard, but it's Jose's turn to spend time with her. 

I have another "announcement", we bought a house! Well we're still in the option period. But that ends this Saturday and then we're locked in. We're so grateful to be able to purchase our own home completely on our own-not something everyone our age is able to do. Or, my age anyway. Who knew we would even qualify? We went $43,000 below what we qualified for so I'd say we did pretty well! We should be moving in by the end of this month.

This may be the last thing I post for a while. I've decided I don't want to be so open anymore. It's something I've been struggling with for some time and I think it'd just be best to lay low. Hope you guys are doing well!

Small life update.

Hey! So some of you may (or may not) have noticed that MMH did not happen this week! I honestly just had a lot going on, with throwing a party for a friend leaving the state-to everything else life has to offer hahah. Anyway, I don't want to frustrate myself with having a set schedule with blogging, if it gets done-great! If not-oh well. I put a lot of pressure on myself to make sure I get "read-worthy" content up. But life really isn't that interesting. I'm not traveling the world or taking tons of action shots hahah. I'm just a working mom/wife and I'm enjoying every second I get. I guess I'm allowing myself to be lazy. 

I had an interview today for a new job. Not in the medical field. I'm nervous cos I don't know what the pay is, I won't hear back for a week or two. Which is okay, I have other things I need to take care of in that time. I'm excited for a change though, if I get hired on. It's a great opportunity and I think I'll be a lot happier. But most of all, I should be getting more time with Olivia.

 Last night we got a new bed, we finally picked up our California king! Wow, sooo much room. Especially since Olivia sleeps with us haha. I also had dinner for the last time until December with my best friend.

I have a DIY project or two that I need to sit down and start haha. Jose and I just had our 3 year wedding anniversary and haven't celebrated yet so we're trying to figure out when to do that.

Things have been a tad bit hectic. But we're managing. I'm really excited and hopeful for the future. Things feel like they're changing fast. I'm off work from June 25-30th. So I think I'll be getting a ton of blogging done in that time! If you guys don't hear from me for a little while don't worry, I haven't forgotten you or stopped blogging. Life is just needs my undivided attention. :)

To keep up with me you can follow me on Insta : @dragonballbree or add me on snapchat dragonball.bree or search for me basically anywhere under that name.

A lifetime isn't enough to love you.

All weekend people were telling me how great of a guy Jose is. How nice he is, how funny he is, anything and everything positive you could say about this guy was said. I definitely consider myself lucky to call this man my husband. I almost feel like its too good to be true. Do I really deserve him? I could drive myself crazy thinking about all the reasons he should leave me and find someone better, but instead I'll be thankful for every second I get with him. I married him a month after I turned 18, I had just graduated high school the week before. I was about to start my life with the man of my dreams and I had no idea what to expect. I never thought much of marriage. I figured if you got along fine without that piece of paper, why put so much pressure? I mean, my parents weren't married and it made separating a lot easier on them. Not that I was thinking about separating.

Anyway, Jose and I were together for about 6 months(around November) when I decided he was the one. I constantly told him I would marry him one day and that I couldn't wait to live together and anything else that might freak your boyfriend out. I never got much of a response out of him. We didn't talk about future plans, we didn't discuss where to move, I was almost worried he didn't even want to be with me hahah. Which was beyond stupid.

So, on the afternoon of March 14th we told my dad that we planned on getting married, after that we drove to his parents to tell them as well. And that's the day that I consider us getting engaged

So we fumbled around with dates for a while before choosing June 9, 2012. That means I had around 2 months to plan. Initially, we were going to go to a courthouse and do it the "easy" way. But Jose and I have such a generous family that they all pitched in and provided a very memorable wedding for us. I actually still have the box my wedding dress came in and I use it to keep gift bags and tissue paper. :')

I wouldn't change a thing about this relationship. Jose and I have a million inside jokes, and a lifetime of memories. I wouldn't change a single fight, I wouldn't take back any tears. Those moments have brought us to where we are now. They've strengthened our  relationship and have helped us to communicate better. 

I say this all the time, but I could not have chosen a better partner in life. 

You are my better half, my one and only, and my everything.

I seriously encourage everyone to take chances when it comes to a crush or partner. It took Jose and I months to finally just realize how crazy we were about each other, and I was almost sure he would never be interested in me, but something kept me hanging on.

Only time will tell.

I'm sitting at my table trying to think of what to say, I told myself I wouldn't cry when Chrysta left. Well, she isn't gone just yet. Not for a few days. She just left my house. We had a small going away party for her and had a few friends over and had a really good time. 

What defines a best friend? To me, it isn't someone you grow up knowing your entire life. It's someone you're comfortable with. Someone you trust. I don't use the term best friend very often. I don't trust a lot of people. 

Chrysta and I became friends when I was about 16 (that's 5 years ago) I was going through a lot. I didn't have anyone to go to. Little did I know, she was going through something similar in a sense. We related, we trusted each other, we became comfortable with each other. There aren't a lot of people that I honestly stick around for more than a few months. I'm a few beers/shots in, and I tried so hard not to cry when hugging her goodbye but I couldn't help it so I'm insanely emotional right now. 

No matter how many times we would fight and make up, we always knew we would end up "together again". It's almost like a spouse, you're just meant to be with someone. And my someone/best friend, is Chrysta. We could go two years without talking and miss out on the most important parts of each other's lives, and we could apologize and make up as if nothing ever happened. At this point, I'm sure you're wondering why I'm being such a crybaby. Chrysta is moving. Not just to another town, she's moving across the country. When she first told me the plans, I was like okay cool, we'll still have a few months to hang-it didn't happen that way. Somehow those "months" turned into weeks. It still hasn't fully hit me. I know she's still there when I need her, but she's just not there, I can't call her up when I have a day off and tell her to bring her baby girl over to play. I can't ask her if she's seen a new building here in Tyler, or tried a new restaurant that we got. My best friend is moving 7894934789 miles away. I'm happy for her, hell, If I could get out of East Texas, I would. But I'm sad, I can't imagine us apart. She has a twin, and I'm sure she's taking it way harder than I am, but wow, I honestly just don't want to go through this. I'm typing this with my eyes covered in tears I won't let fall. I feel selfish, I want her to stay so bad. And I didn't admit it for a while, I encouraged her to go. I want her to experience new things. I just wish she didn't have to permanently leave. 

Thank you, Chrysta. For being there when I had absolutely no one. For being the only person willing to listen to me cry. For being there all these years, after all of our fights. Who knew that our bond would be this strong just from meeting off of myspace hahah. I'm happy for you, and everything you're going to experience. I know we aren't sisters, and sometimes we go days without talking. But I want you to know that I love you, and I always will. If you ever need a place to stay in Tyler our doors are always open. I can't wait to see you when you visit. Please don't replace me. I'm going to miss you more than you'll ever know. I know I said I wouldn't cry, but you suck for doing this. >:/

Monday Must Haves #18

Hope you guys had a good weekend! I'm finishing up this MMH on a Saturday actually, I just got done watching a little benefit show that I took some terrible photos at (I'll post those later) so I'm trying to make sure I get this done quickly cos I just want to relax the rest of the weekend!

When I first saw that these were back in style I was like PLS NO, but I think its just cos the outfit they were paired with did not work at all, for me anyways. I'm coming around to them now and wouldn't mind a black or lilac color.

This beanie is just toooo dang cool and I would absolutely wear it even during the summer. Jk, have you ever been in Texas during the summer?

I don't really go swimming much, but if I did, I'd be trying to get my hands on one of these.

One of my very first blog posts was actually about me wanting an Instax Mini 8 and that was over 2 years ago haha, one day I will have one though!

How fun is this film?!

This would be perfect to hang my new film sheets on! Although, I would probably just save the money and make it myself haha.

I am hating myself right now for not buying this hat when we went shopping last weekend.

Uhm, do they sell these but plastic? I would seriously hate for all of these succulents to die under my care hahah.

I probably browse the internet for camera straps like once a week. This is a new business that I just found and I am soo excited for the straps they have been putting out!

This album has so many memories from when I was about 16.

I hope you guys had an awesome weekend! It's been raining nonstop here so its super ugly, hopefully we get more sun this week though!



jellies/American Apparel

beanie/American Apparel

swimsuit/Triangl

instax/Urban Outfitters

film/Urban Outfitters

polaroid clip/Urban Outfitters

hat/Forever 21
camera strap/Etsy

succulents/Etsy

vinyl/Urban Outfitters